Finally June comes to an end. This month of June is such a turning point, breakthrough. I am much grateful for where I am today, the point where I stand I start my new journey. There will be new opportunities, activities, and people run together for the same end point: The hope and the light. And I am feeling like, God opens new ways. More amazingly, He accelerates my way further and faster.
It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before… to test your limits… to break through barriers. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom – Anais Nin
The pull-and-push process takes less than three weeks for me to get into the ocean shore, surprisingly. I know God is working in me every single day of my recovery process. He takes me faster and further when I trust and submit fully. My life is never the same again.
Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need. – Matthew 6:33
Though as much as I fear of depression or breakdown, the fear of hearing condemning voices inside my own head, the fear of rejection, the fear of being hurt, they are now gone. They only exist in the darkness, that ocean deep. I realize the only fear I have is the fear of life itself. The fear of a wasted life. The fear of not giving a deeper meaning in my own life. The fear of not contributing well to the lives of others. Just like Jose Carol says, “I want my son says how proud he is having a father like me, in my funeral day. I want to be remembered by what I have done.”
After stepping my feet into the world, God is revealing new doors. I am offered several times to do makeup either for photoshoot in magazines or events. Though the photoshoots are still under feature division (not yet specifically for beauty or fashion spread), I feel lucky. In very early of my career (I don’t even call myself as makeup artist yet), the stylists trust me to do so, though there are still flaws here and there, I learn a lot already. I am so grateful for the opportunities. Since I am doing makeup for two articles ‘Ask Psychologist’, my name will be on that magazine for a year round. Isn’t that amazing?
I also take audition for performing arts – makeup artistry team in my church. Several days later I am announced that I am accepted. They ask for a help doing the makeup for singers and musicians of ONE Live Recording Concert in 29th June and dancers of celebration day, the next day. So at 10AM we start. Nina Sari Ishak, the keyboardist, is a colleague in my university. She is 2006 batch and takes Music Major. While beautifying her, I ask her things regarding her works and career as a musician. I can really say she is passionate into what she is doing, and putting her fingers on piano keys since 6 years old. I am always inspired by people who pursue their strengths as career. She teaches music too. Big applaud for her.
Since the female dressing room starts to get crowded (with male too!) and there is presence of Sidney Mohede and the winner of The Voice Indonesia, Billy Simpson, and other leaders I admire the most.. I start to lose focus that I am actually talking with Nina. Instead of congratulating Billy for winning the game, I only continue doing makeup and hairdo for Nina while grinning awkwardly. Awkwardly. Well it is my first experience in the backstage with the musicians…. So, yeah. Hahahaha. There are gifted singers too like Sari Simorangkir, Esther, Vinta, and Winny. And there is this one talented guitarist girl too, Gea Denanda. I really like her spirit. She is all the way excited and cheerful when I first meet her, and so humble. I notice everyone is so humble and down-to-earth. Working with the whole team is such an unforgettable experience.
I meet several other talented makeup artists there including Rina Sofiana (her makeup skill is so great I wish I can be like her someday), someone who is in charge annually for makeup and hairdo in Jakarta Fashion Week, who also works for Qiqi Franky, who go back and forth for prominent Indonesian fashion designers’ shows like Eddy Betty, Biyan, Deden Siswanto.. Okay the list goes on. And this girl, Dinda, she takes makeup artistry in France. She says that natural makeup lesson is the hardest one. She advices that I’d better take makeup lesson here in Indonesia instead of going abroad because of several considerations. Yeah I was going to go abroad. Ooh, okay. I instantly remember what Calvin Klein says that it takes makeup to look natural.
Before the concert starts, Sidney leads prayer among the singers and musicians team. I slip in and I hear he begins, “This is not about the stage. Not about the lighting. Not about the production. Not about the singing techniques. Not about how good we look. Not about the makeup. But this is about Jesus Christ.” Yes, pastor!
How the concert goes? Well, wait! Before going on there, I really want ALL of you to see… That I finally get picture with….
…Sidney Mohede! *insert screaming here*
Thankyou so much Diana and Juliana for coming to the backstage to give me a badge. At the right time Sidney comes, and for your willingness to take photo of us. And Nina, you are awesome. I am so honored that you say to him that I do makeup for you so I can talk to him and take picture with him. THANKYOU NINA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. But just like I am in the dressing room, instead of congratulating him for the album release I only go tongue-tied and awkward. So silly. Okay, that’s all for the euphoria. It is not about me taking photos with Sidney Mohede…
Here are video (made by the production team) and pictures of the concert. Anyway I really should learn on how to take great pictures.
There is no me here because I have to go back to backstage immediately to pack my stuffs and they take pictures without mee! Ahahaha.
This is my group in my leadership class I have mentioned in my last post. Our group wins the opening game, and guess what? We all get Sidney Mohede’s new album with his autograph on it. Yay for us!
So finally this post comes to an end. June is the month when I was first born and now I am born again. I am favored and blessed. Thankyou, June. Thankyou, Jesus.
Everything comes from a simple choice. What will I be now if I never dare to look up? What will I be now if I never dare to say I will get better? What will I be now if I never trust again? Who will help myself to get better beside me myself and Him?
I am now grateful beyond measure.
And most importantly, I thank you, readers. For all the supports and loves. Stay passionate, okay x.
“Believe in yourself! Believe in yourself, in the power you have, to control your own life day by day. Believe in the strength that you have deep inside and your faith will help show you the way. Believe in tomorrow and what it will bring. Let a hopeful heart carry you through. For things will work out if you trust and believe there is no limit to what you can do!” – Larry S. Chengges